First Month DONE!

I have apparently been training for my half marathon for a month now.  It's more like a month and a half since I restarted my schedule a week or so after I first started it.  ANYWAY, it's going well.  I'm two miles shy of my 50 mi July Goal for US Road Cycling.  I don't know why I thought I had 5 miles left, which I completed today, but I had 7, not 5.  Math.

I ate cake and all the Coke I could drink.  I think I had 4 cans today.  I was feeling so anxious so, of course, let's add caffeine to the mix!  That's a great idea!!  Buzz, buzz.  I'm all wonked out.  Agh, I need to meditate or hit myself with a mallet on the head and pass out.  Let's meditate, that won't hurt.

I also did 10 mins of strength training for the arms/shoulders.  I'm out of shape.  I couldn't complete half of the workouts.  Shame!  I was doing so well.

My kids are amazing to me, they got to swim in the pool and they weren't freaking out or throwing temper tantrums.  I was happy they got to swim because we got home, cleaned them up, changed, and went right to bed.  I threw my dirty running clothes in the washer and am ready for my easy run tomorrow.  Just 35 mins, I'm taking the dogs.  I feel bad that they've been in their crate while I try to regain my home from the dirt monster.  I cleaned and CLEANED today.

I'm pooped, all this "bad" food is upsetting my stomach and draining my energy.  I've been so sleepy, I should call it a night and go to sleep.  I should.

Indoor Cycling

5 miles left!!

I just LOVE seeing that I cover that many miles in 25 minutes... I know, it's probably half of that but it still helps the spirit.  Today was W3D6 of half marathon training and it called for 40 minutes of cross training.  I did 25 on the bike and now on to more yoga.  Tomorrow's Pilates, which I'll probably switch out for weight training and more yoga.  I really need the yoga thing.  Runs are getting longer and yoga just calls me down.  Yoga.  I love that word.

Still no ideas for the tattoo design I'm afraid of getting but will get because I will no longer be afraid.  I know it'll be recognized once I see it, so no biggie.  I'll just keep on Pinteresting!  It's for a good cause.

Anxiety is rising, a new home and only one income is hard on the wallet.  I talked to my sister and she's agreed to watch my kiddos if and when I find a job.  The last time I tried this, with my husband being the morning babysitter, it nearly broke me down.  I missed a lot of moments and first-times when it came to my son.  But they're almost 4 and 2 respectively, I think it may be time.  I am counting on God and the Universe to take my pleas and lead me the right way.  We shall see!

I have a new outlook in life, I feel empowered and relieved.  I was even considering having a third baby b/c I just think it's the right thing to do... weird, I know.  But, I took care of my little nephew and it was just a little too much if I had to handle three kids by myself.  I want to be a patient and loving mom, but sometimes it's hard to stretch myself so thin.  I know things will happen when they'll happen, so I'll just leave it to God.

Kids are cute, but in numbers they're tiring as hell.